Amazing Gray

This is a sneak peek at the newborn session shot last week by this very talented photographer.

Maddie was at school yesterday and it was just Grayson and me. We headed to a lactation clinic for some extra pointers and then stopped in at my OB's office, which happened to be just two stories down.

As I walked down the long hallway to their office, it hit me that this time, this time, I was carrying my baby.

I've been to this office for years and it holds a lot of emotions. There were times I left elated, having seen a flickering heartbeat or hearing a strong heartbeat.

But, there were also times of so much pain. So much heart ache. Times I sobbed on the way back to the car. Crying so hard that I couldn't catch my breath. Walking down that hallway and wanting to just scream.

But yesterday, I walked down the hall holding my sweet, sweet baby boy.

Our boy that we waited so long to hold, to kiss, to rock.

I can honestly say that it took me a good five months to even accept his pregnancy. There was so much fear; I was so scared to let myself fall in love with someone that I might lose. Maybe that's normal after having had losses. Maybe I just wasn't as faithful as I should've been.

But all it took was seeing his face that instant he was born... Touching him and feeling the weight of him in my arms... I fell completely and utterly and totally in love.

And I know that His timing is so perfect. For so many months, I begged and pleaded for this child. And, He was faithful and brought us this amazing blessing in His time.

And for that, I am so, so thankful.

He was most certainly worth the wait.